When I was little, like everyone, I wondered what I wanted to be when I grow up. I answered as many girls, "actress" and began to imagine a future where different people could be many times as desired. It was a whirlwind of papers, scenery, different aesthetics and life stories.
As I got older I was told I had to play what role. Had to value myself and that impacted more than anything in relation to the other. Not to be with any man, let the people with whom I join take me astray.
value myself questioning if he was not all that I had imposed, if he preferred to pursue a career rather than humanistic counsel to feel respect for those who call me Dr. if Cuba is actually worse than my country because there of people flee on a raft , if I had to marry a man at a certain age to have children and home ownership. Value myself was just what was seen. And the surface was for me the least care.
Over time I decided to test all papers. Drug addicts and the friends I had followed in his game. I danced all types of music. Trauma to my body I was not that skeleton parading in Paris Fashion Week. I tried out these pubs or clubs in bad reputation and be with people I knew at that time, male or female, simply because they have an attraction. I tried other ideologies, I believed in utopian worlds and went to march for animal rights or the poor. I turned off the TV, I went to the middle of nowhere and read a book. I laughed and talked loud compared to people with glasses and an air of intellectualism. I lived in another city, I left a career and began another. Creative courses and sang made progress Peronist not enjoyed going to a bowling alley, laughing with friends.
Some people believe that this is not valued. Going from one extreme to another. Try everything. That one ends up being lost in the variety. I saw I could play all the roles a bit, try and finish deciding what he wanted. And so they are no longer papers.
Leo was just an actor. Also had its importance during the performance. With him I learned that you could hang out without compromise. But I chose that this is not a constant in my life for that hole that I did well. For there were many gaps in my life, it was they who led me to seek to fill a gap, to find the variety of things, to feel curious and always keep looking and looking for me but the hollow feeling after being with someone just for sex I did not like at all and left me no good. And some need souvenirs.
Leo also represented, on the sexual level, encouraging me to do all that they censored my family and my Christian school. Being with someone just for being. And then go one step further: go to a gay disco but being a woman had to be with a man because they did Adam and Eve. And only there, where I could release all tax papers, I could choose the role I really wanted, I was well and I served.
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